Unfortunately, as I am writing this, a couple of weeks ago I suffered my first seizure in 15 months. I have found this very difficult to come to terms with even though I knew it was something that could happen. However, as always I’m determined to make the best of the situation so I thought I would put it all down in a blog post and try to raise awareness of how difficult setbacks can be for someone with epilepsy.
15 months?! What went wrong?! that’s what everyone seemed to be saying when I told them about my recent seizure. Everyone (including myself) was starting to believe that my epilepsy was well controlled so this seizure came as a massive shock. Obviously a seizure can happen at any time, no matter how long it has been since your last one, however the longer you go seizure free the more hopeful you become that you may never have one again.
So where did it go wrong? After a telephone consultation with my Epilepsy Nurse they believe it was due to me being run down with a chest infection. Any illness and infection can be a trigger for seizures and unfortunately this chest infection was enough to cause one for me. They are hopeful that by increasing my medication, that I will have enough ‘back up’ so that any infections I may get in the future do not result in any seizures.
Now increasing medication is a WHOLE new subject as it really isn’t as easy as it seems. With many anti-convulsant medications you can get a crazy amount of side effects so they have to be very careful about how to increase your dosage at a steady rate that keeps any side effects to a minimum. If you’d like a blog post about the medication and side effects etc please let me know in the comments as it’s something I’d be very happy to go into more detail about.
So what does this seizure mean for me now? Firstly, I have had to surrender my provisional driving license after having just 3 lessons 😦 I am hopeful that I will once again go 12 months seizure free and be able to reapply for this next year so we will see🤞🏻. In addition to this, this seizure has massively taken its toll on my confidence. Having a seizure and the lack of control is such a scary concept for me and it is something I have to try to push to the back of my mind otherwise I don’t think I’d ever want to leave the house!
I hope that this blog post isn’t too negative and that it enables people to see what really goes through someone’s mind when they’ve had a big setback such as a seizure. Here’s to taking each day, week and month as they come and staying as positive as possible! Let’s hope for a seizure free future☺️
Any questions feel free to send them my way! Thanks for reading, Molly x